I am 299,792,458 meters per second....

Dude, I love this. Totally put me much more into the Christmas Spirit. Thanks Joes!


Slept at 4AM...I really need some help. Miraculously, I'm not a complete zombie today. I was pretty damn tired earlier though...too bad this video didn't come earlier, he he he. Do I really have that much occupying my mind? Iya said Chris said that I worry too much, which is probably why I'm not sleeping and also forgetting everything. My brain is full of thoughts. I need to make a thought deposit...where the hell do you go to do that?

Still need to finish my shopping...I still got a few people left. Only 6 more days...I can't believe it.

I am my own incomprehensible hieroglyphic...

why on earth can't I sleep right now?!?!?!?

I am one too many...

I am NOT feelin good today. I'm almost over this whole cold thing - I got pretty tossed at Mai Teezy last night. So now, I have mad hangover plus my stomach's been trippin all day. Groannnnnnnnnnnnn. Note to self - you still have WORK on Thursdays idiot!!! I forgot to drink gatorade before getting ready for bed last night, which would've helped out a HUGE deal, but I didn't want to drink it after brushing my teeth, he he he. Anyway, I have an excuse for drinking so much...I was drinking my sorrows away; I had only JUST found out that Jessica Alba is.....wait for it.....pregnant. O to the M to the G. Sad sad day. Now her first child won't be mine anymore...Jessica oh Jessica, how could you betray me like that?!?!?!?

Takin Auntie Winda to the airport today. She's finally gonna go home back to her familia in the PI. It'll be kinda sad to see her go. She's been here for 6 mos and has really become a regular part of the family here. She's been hangin out w/ pop a lot and it's kinda cool to see him chillin w/ his siblings, which he never gets to do anymore. I'm sure the whole family will be really sad too. But hey, we've had her for 6 awesome months and it's time for her to get to be with her fam again. At least now when I go back to the PI I'll have a more solid relationship with her; when I went back in '05, I really felt like I didn't have much attachment to anyone, cuz I hadn't seen them in over 20 years. Now, it's a little different, plus I saw them all 2 years ago too...so it'll be fresh still. Man, I hope the rest of the fam can make it out here one of these days....

Anyway...just killin time til I take off....headache...go AWAY!

I am wide right...

These christmas songs are starting to pick me up and get me in the holiday mood. And once I put the deer outside, the house will be a little more festive. They don't look as happy outside; which reminds me that I need to buy some more lights for the house too. I really wish people would come over and check out the christmas lights all up and down the street...it's kinda cool. Right now, I'm listening to one of my favorite Christmas songs, "Sleigh Ride" - Our cheeks are nice and rosy and comfy and cozy are we.... this song is so upbeat. It puts a smile on my face and I bet people are wondering what I'm bouncin up and down at my desk for, he he he.

Almost done pushing this sickness away from my body...almost. It's like takin a dump.

"We learn more from cooperating with each other than from copmpeting with each other."

I am a glitch in the matrix...

There's no better cure for a bout with insomnia than exhaustion and a cold. The lack of sleep over the past few weeks finally caught up to me...I didn't sleep til about 3:30 on Monday morning and woke up at 8 feeling like absolute crap. I had a feeling that my immune system was taking a huge hit with each passing day that I wasn't really sleeping...and just as I had expected, it hit me. It was my message that I need to take it easy. Which is hard for me to do a lot of the time...it's hard for me to stay still. So I stayed home all day yesterday and rested. Watched 2 of 3 discs from HIMYM season 2; because disc three was missing! Anyway, I started getting restless bing at home...so I decided to get my tattoo done ...but then I realized that the shop was closed that day. I also needed to pick up something from Chris, but he called and said he would just drop it by - all signs that I should just stay at home all day...so that I did. And it was glorious. I was able to do some laundry and get some much needed rest. I slept a little earlier than usual...about 1:15AM...but hey, that's a start; and of course the Nyquil helped out a lot, he he he. Came in to work today, but still not feelin so hot. Doesn't help when people tell you you don't look so good either, he he he.

It's already only 2 weeks til Christmas and I have yet to be fully hit with the Christmas spirit. I don't know why. I see all of the decorations everywhere, people shopping, Christmas music on KOST; we even have our own tree and lawn deer at the Downey house, yet I still don't feel it. I could be because I've been a little busy lately, but I think I've been busier in years past...last year, I was out of town right around this time for a test drive in the east coast. Even worse, I haven't even come close to completing my giftlist! Maybe the urgency will push me into feeling the holidays soon....man, there are like a million and a half versions of the Little Drummer Boy...so crazy...

There are gamblers in this world, and there are those that say they don't like to. But I think every single person has some little gambler in them. Just because you don't gamble at the casino doesn't mean you're not a gambler. If you've run a red light, or sped, or touched the kettle to see if it's still hot has gambled, or ever gotten piss-drunk has gambled, or have ever been in a relationship, you've gambled. Risk...such a crazy thing. You lay yourself out in fear that things could go completely opposite of how you want it to be, but you gamble anyway. It's scary, to make yourself vulnerable like that...but at the same time it's thrilling, and even more, you'd never know if it would turn out how you expected if you didn't take the risk. And hey, no pain no gain, right? I'm totally rambling here, just in one of those contemplative moods I guess. To make a long thought short...you gotta risk big to win big.

I've been wanting to post these pics for a while...

Vegas trip w/ the gambling crew...first of many to come!


Iya's 30th...Drunk iya is so much fun!


Christine F's b-day at the Edison

I wish I could leave early...but I carpooled today. I think I just got re-energized.

"In care there is no excess"

I am my eyes wide open…

Have I always been this bad at falling asleep? It’s already a little past 3 in the morning and I don’t even feel the need to close my eyes. It always catches up to me in the day though, I get so tired at work. I don’t think it’s that there’s too much on my mind…or that I’m just really energetic right now, cuz I’ve been pretty sedentary for the past few hours. Okay…screw it, I really just want to sleep right now. Time to start tryin to count sheep…

1…2…3…4…5…6…7…8…9…10…11…12...

I am a huge sigh of relief...

The concert is finally over and I don't have to spend hours on end listening to GF Handel's "Messiah" on my ipod learning and practicing the music over and over. I have to say that the show went splendidly...can you say it like that? Well, if you can't, I just did...and it really did. About 250 people showed up, and they all seemed to really enjoy the show. I felt so accomplished and relieved at the same time. There's something about standing in front of that many people singing your heart out...listening to the orchestra really just made me feel so peaceful inside. One thing though is that we hard to wear tuxedo's....I am already not a real fan of dressing up, but tuxes? come on...blech! But I'm digressing...the concert was awesome!

I gave a speech today about volunteering in my TM meeting today. I got a lot of good feedback about it and just how people said they see that I"m really passionate about getting people involved into stuff like that. But while they were saying that to me, I realized how little time I actually take to volunteer. I get one day off per year just to do volunteer work. that's a free day! I really need to get up off my high chair and go volunteer already. I was supposed to volunteer Thanksgiving, but I couldn't cuz I had to sing at church. I'm really planning to do it for Christmas this year, esp since I don't have anywhere to be that day, except for with my family. Hopefully I can do that.

I am officially addicted to a new show. I'm totally behind...but "How I met your mother" frickin ROCKS! Everyone has been telling me for the past couple of months how much I would love this show because it is just like FRIENDS, but I never really had the chance to get into it. But into it I am. I borrowed the DVD season 1 and I'm totally hooked. That chick that plays Robin...for some reason I am so completely attracted to her. And it IS just like FRIENDS. Sooo crazy. I love the characters on that show...it really reminds me of people around me, myself included. So thank you to all of you who peer-pressured me into watching this show. I have you to thank for more money spent on DVD sets and hours spent watching it on my TV.

Life is all about little things. So funny how people can do something so small and can really make someone else's day, without even knowing it.

I am one for the ages...

Happy belated b-day to Joemama! Sorry I missed out on your b-day bud! I'll try to make it up to ya!

This has to be the quote of the year for me...and one day, I'll be able to go into full disclosure about it. I just wanted to record it now, so when I look back at my old posts, I can remember that I did this...though how could I ever forget. (If you could see my face, I can barely contain myself because I'm about to bust out laughing again, but I'm at work, so can't do that...) Man, I am SUCH a BONEHEAD. Seriously. And I seriously wish I could tell the story already, but I just can't. Anyway, here goes the quote...

"You know that feeling -- you're not completely embarrassed yet, but you glimpse tomorrow's embarrassment?" (You'll have to guess where it's from)

Been quite a while since I last posted. Since my last post, I think I've gained about 10 lbs from the long holiday weekend. Hard to believe it was just a few weeks ago. I was gonna post this really deep reflective Thanksgiving entry...but the more I thought about it, it wasn't so deep OR reflective, he he he. Maybe I'll save it for my "Year in Review" deep and reflective entry later this month, ha ha ha. But I did want to mention that although I've been through a lot of crap this year, I have so many more things to be completely thankful for and I really was thankful for every single one of those things on Turkey Day. Since then I've been here and there doing this and that. Been practicing for the Messiah concert for St Tims on Wednesday and just spending time with all my friends.

I just got back from Vegas yesterday and had an awesome awesome time. Thanks to Bev, Ja, and James(Gamblers unite!!!) and a cameo appearance by Mina - I haven't laughed that hard in a long time! Pics to be posted when I get home and find my camera, he he he. I actually came up for once. I had that weird weird feeling that I could just take any table I went to. It was crazy...for real crazy. And maybe it's cuz I had a TON of liquid courage in me practically the entire time. A little prologue before I go into the events of the weekend(well those that I can remember of course, he he he)

...Friday night it was raining like crazy...in LA and apparently, in Vegas too. So bad in fact that no flights were going into Vegas...so our flight was delayed from 9 to 10:30. Unfortunately, we didn't know the flight would be delayed and decided to head out to the airport early because we thought it was gonna be crazy over there...which it was...but we could've totally eaten somewhere else first instead of at the airport. So we decide to just go to the bar and have a couple drinks since we were delayed...I go smoke outside and go check the screens and our flight is delayed ANOTHER hour...so now it's 11:30..I go back and share the news with everyone at the bar(apparently all of the vegas ppl were in there), so I say, let's just drink some more! So we do. After our first drink and 3 patron shots later...we decided we needed to chill before we got on the plane so we went to go eat at McD's...cheeseburgers sure are good, but not 5 dollar good. Anyway, we didn't take off til a little after midnight, but us drinking at the airport just told me what kind of weekend we were to have...
And now to the random funny moments throughout the weekend...
-(When we got to the parking lot at LAX we moved all our toiletries into the check-in bag w/ the alcohol) - I'm all excited and yell, "Let's DO THIS!!!!" and as straighten up my suitcase, I forgot to close it after I took out my toiletries and all my shit fell out of my suitcase. It was quiet for about 3 seconds before everyone started busting up.
-(Bev talking about the omelette wraps from Subway at Las Vegas Int'l Airport) - James and I want the bacon and cheese ones...and she goes, Hmmm, I kinda want the bacon and cheese one...but I think I want egg. So I proceed to tell her, "Dude, they're omelette wraps, there's egg in ALL of them! Who eats bacon and cheese by itself?!?!?" HA HA HA HA.
-(Mina came by and played drinking games with us before we went to gamble on day 2) - We're all pretty nice and drunk at the blackjack table and the dealer ends up dealing 23 to someone and mina goes, "TWENTY - ONE! YEAAAAAH!!!!!!" someone's math skills completely deteriorate when she drinks..ahem ahem.
-(From the flight back home) - Before we take off, one of the flt attendants asks ja if he wants a drink and he says he doesn't want one. But he changes his mind and tells another flt attendant he does want one. I fall asleep on the flight so I have no idea what happens. When we were talking to baggage claim, somehow we started talking about juice, and the following conversation ensues:
Ja - Oh, did that lady ever bring my juice?
Me - You didn't even wake up for it?!?!?!
Ja - No, I fell asleep
Bev - So that's who's drink it was?!? I woke up during the flight and saw the drink on the tray next to us(Ja and bev were sitting together in the row behind james and me) and I was wondering who was sitting next to us, and that it better not spill!
Me - You suck, you told her to get you a drink and you never even drank it. Nice one.
-(While we're taxiing down the runway to our gate when we get back to LAX, I'm talkin to James) - "Dude, which airline is that that has Lincoln's face on the tail?" And he gives me a weird look. I tell him I think it's continental or Alaska. And he goes, "That's not Abraham Lincoln, that's an ESKIMO!" ha ha ha. I was wondering why there was that fuzzy circle arond Lincoln's face too! I never cease to learn new things, he he he.

Some notes to self for Vegas trips with this group:
-Ja is a sore loser when it comes to playing drinking games or jack and poi
-Bev is vindictive and scary, and I wouldn't want to ask her to dance at a club
-James is so money he doesn't even know it

Work is starting to get a tad bit stressful...some major decisions need to be made depending on the outcome of one of my projects...krikey!